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I've tried several things but,
I can't stop eating. I've been binging non stop for 6 days. I've probably gained 15 or 20 Ibs. I can't bring myself to puke no matter how
ill I feel. I've tried a couple of times
but haven't been successful. I'm
sick of this and I seriously can't
fight it anymore. No one understands it. Not even other bulimics.
Eat to the point that I think I'm
gonna die. I think my point is to
die. I've been trying to kill myself
every time I overeat. No one can
help me. I'm desperate & I can't
fight this alone. I'm tired of doing it
alone. My body is crying for help.
I'm crying for help. I want to die.
Okay, I'm back & I'm better. Things are gonna shape up.
Dying isn't an option, I know that.
I'm gonna stop pouting & waiting
for someone to fix it. I'm going to
stop being so sensitive when people
don't call or don't make & effort to
be w/me. I'm going to try & stop
taking everything so personally &
remember the world doesn't revolve
around me. When I hear that negative voice shouting from inside me,
I'm going to tell it to shove it. I'm
angry w/ that voice & I refusse to let it take what's left of my life. I've
lasted this long & made it this far,
there's no way I'm quitting. I'm
going to stop sitting around feeling
sorry for myself & beating myself
up. I don't feel stupid for sharing
my life story w/ Ashley ... I was in
need. So what, if I talk a lot about
recovery, my E.D. etc ... It's a
huge part of my life ... I'm smart,
determined, funny, pretty, caring,
considerate, loving, a hard worker
& thoughtful. I have plenty of
friends. I'm going to stop putting
my life on hold until I conquer my
eating disorder. My life is my eating disorder. My eating disorder is
a huge stepping stone in my life.
Life will not wait for me. I can
conquer my E.D. & live at the
same time. It's probably better that
way. Plus, I will have stuff waiting
for me when I awaken from this
nightmare. I am no longer scared.
God's watching & warning me
he's fighting next to me. I will not
I forgive myself for days
of binging. It hurt, but now I am
ready to be kind to myself again. It
was only 6 days of my life.