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Tues. 9/26 Today I binged and purged. I have been very sad & depressed today & most of yesterday. I skipped group today & hinged & purged. Then I slept & studied & binged again. I was upset about a lot of things earlier. Right now these are the things on my mind. * I'm scared of the other kind of life. * I don't have a strong enough support system (close enough friends here) * I feel stupid and violated * I feel worthless (boyfriend, friends) * I feel not good enough * T'm scared of myself * I'm scared of what I've done to my body * I'm afraid I' ve lost control * I'm lonely * I'm humiliated because of my E.D.—feel It makes me less * I'm afraid I have to have Prozac * I'm sad because I need a drug to help me not fall apart * I hate food & sometimes I really hate myself Wed 9/27 Today I spent studying,sleeping & binging. I crammed as much food in my body as possible. Until I felt literally sick to my stomach. I'm still hungry for more. It's been 4 pm since I've eaten. I made the decision in class this evening to stop & pull myself out of this hole. I came home, cleaned up, did dishes, watched T.V. shows, did laundry, bathed, did homework & now I find myself sitting here lonely & scared of my- self, of life, of the next week dur- ing which I won't eat or socialize. I will be in a recovery period. I don't want to see anyone, knowing I've crammed this much food in my body over the last 48 hours. I feel fat. I feel like I'm a bad per son or less than others... really screwed up. If I choose to eat, I choose to have some comfort ... a friend for the weekend. I won't have to restrict. I hate myself. I'm fat again. |
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